Conflicts In a Shared House ARGGGH!

About 10 months ago I moved to a shared house. After living by myself for a few years, I'm now discovering how to conduct myself in a small community of 4 people. We all share an interest in spiritual growth and we are doing our best to evolve and continue our journey through this world, however our ways of doing so might be different. Very different, at times.

And so conflicts and arguments arise. It's amazing to see how every one of us deals with difficulties...

I noticed that I'm terrified by conflicts and am trying to resolve them quickly, many times I'm hasty with my solution - which sometimes lead to another problem as I haven't taken the time to understand and identify all the needs that should be accounted for.

I find it challenging to communicate my needs. Or to refuse someone's requests. And above all, I judge myself for not being as loving as I could be towards my housemates. I can see that ego speaks through me, whereas if it was that which is truly me who speaks, I would probably say things differently.

Only after a conversation is finished, only now I'm realising I wasn't within AWARNESS anytime throughout it... ARGGGH indeed!

When I was living by myself, it was easy to be loving and caring and cheerful very often; I simply lived my life exactly like I want, no one to consider, and if the occasional couch-surfer annoyed me - well, they were simply not invited again! But having housemates that I appreciate is not something that I want to dismiss as an annoying couch-surfer ;)

My gaol now is to learn how to CONVERSE within AWARNESS.

I'm using tools to learn how to improve my communication skills - NVC (which I wrote about HERE) is one of these tools. And I know practice will make things better.

I'll keep you updated...